As you know, TNE, I've been helping out with these forums a little bit lately, and have even managed to become a Mod/Staff Member. However, I've been thinking on if I want to continue doing this, and I can't say I want to at this time. Not because I don't love the community, job, or anything else, but because I need to focus on getting my vision back, and find out just what I can do, and what I really want out of my abilities and life.
As it stands I'm on thin ice with myself and abilities. I can barely muster up the courage, motivation, and commitment to learn anything new, be it API, Software, or anything else really. I'm not going to lie, I'm great at what I do, but I'm not able to show it off because I have no vision, or hope.
One mistake ruins my day and makes me question what I've been doing with my life all this time. I've failed so much, and have accomplished so little. All of this is because I've been mistaken the whole time. I've been trying to do everything myself. Sure, people help - they give me concepts, ideas, and even graphics, but no one helps code my games/website. I never learned from anyone after my college days, I just learned what I thought would help me. I've developed bad habits development wise, and looking back I've faced this before with something else: Forums, and communities.
For the longest time I would go into forums thinking it was every man for himself, and that I had a right to be heard. I would get upset when people disagreed with me, and would even lash out until I was banned. It was not until here that I would learn to think differently. This is the best community I've been a part of since PSO GCN.
It's really given me ideas, hopes, dreams, fun times, friends. It's been great, and I hope it continues to be so.
I need to make my other passion great too - Programming, and Web Development/Design. To do this I'm going to need to find what TNE gave me: Friends. Community, and a place to get peer reviewed, and to hear new ideas. I want to work on a team where I can actually talk with people, and get help in the coding sense. I want to learn from people, as I have on TNE.
I have no idea where to start, really. I'm looking for young coders full of enthusiasm, and ideas. Older coders are nice, but they think differently, and while it's nice to connect with them it's not really what I'm looking for right now. I remember when I was most happy and passionate about Web Dev/Design was when I had a friend and mentor in college help me out with stuff. I just don't have that anymore, and noticing how important it is to have that it's no wonder I feel the way I do about my work.
I don't know where to look, or what to say, how do I explain this to the people/communities I'm looking to get help from? Any help would be appreciated, and thank you. Please give me feedback as well, let me know if you think something doesn't add up, is wrong, or you just want to hear more about something.
@Menashe , @DarkDepths , @everyone
As it stands I'm on thin ice with myself and abilities. I can barely muster up the courage, motivation, and commitment to learn anything new, be it API, Software, or anything else really. I'm not going to lie, I'm great at what I do, but I'm not able to show it off because I have no vision, or hope.
One mistake ruins my day and makes me question what I've been doing with my life all this time. I've failed so much, and have accomplished so little. All of this is because I've been mistaken the whole time. I've been trying to do everything myself. Sure, people help - they give me concepts, ideas, and even graphics, but no one helps code my games/website. I never learned from anyone after my college days, I just learned what I thought would help me. I've developed bad habits development wise, and looking back I've faced this before with something else: Forums, and communities.
For the longest time I would go into forums thinking it was every man for himself, and that I had a right to be heard. I would get upset when people disagreed with me, and would even lash out until I was banned. It was not until here that I would learn to think differently. This is the best community I've been a part of since PSO GCN.
It's really given me ideas, hopes, dreams, fun times, friends. It's been great, and I hope it continues to be so.
I need to make my other passion great too - Programming, and Web Development/Design. To do this I'm going to need to find what TNE gave me: Friends. Community, and a place to get peer reviewed, and to hear new ideas. I want to work on a team where I can actually talk with people, and get help in the coding sense. I want to learn from people, as I have on TNE.
I have no idea where to start, really. I'm looking for young coders full of enthusiasm, and ideas. Older coders are nice, but they think differently, and while it's nice to connect with them it's not really what I'm looking for right now. I remember when I was most happy and passionate about Web Dev/Design was when I had a friend and mentor in college help me out with stuff. I just don't have that anymore, and noticing how important it is to have that it's no wonder I feel the way I do about my work.
I don't know where to look, or what to say, how do I explain this to the people/communities I'm looking to get help from? Any help would be appreciated, and thank you. Please give me feedback as well, let me know if you think something doesn't add up, is wrong, or you just want to hear more about something.
@Menashe , @DarkDepths , @everyone